Matthew Poole and continuators on Numbers 11:15

15 And if thou deal thus with me, kill me, I pray thee, out of hand, if I have found favour in thy sight, and let me not see my wretchedness .

Heb. my evil, i. e. my intolerable anguish and torment, arising from the insuperable difficulty of my office and work of ruling this people, and from the dread of their utter extirpation which they will bring upon themselves, and the dishonour which thence will accrue to God and to religion, as if not I onely but God also were an impostour. Seeing is here put for feeling, as to see death, Psal. 89. 48. Luk. 2. 26. is to suffer it, and to see the salvation of God, Psal. 50. 23. & 91. 16. is to enjoy it.

Marginal references: See 1 King. 19. 4. Jon. 4. 3.